Now I'm terrified
We'll I have gotten over the inital shock wave of happiness with my BFP this morning and I have now move on to terrified. I keep thinking it's going to end in a chemical pregnancy or a MC. I really want to be happy but it's so early and so much can go wrong.
My RE had me do a beta this afternoon and I have a repeat on Saturday. I keep thinking do my boobs hurt a little less ? Are those cramps a good sign or a bad one. I don't know how I can wait over 2 weeks for an u/s.
I guest even with good news an IF girls worries are never over. I know I need to hope. I'm just finding it really hard tonight. I know there's nothing I can do to change what will happen.
I'm sorry if my complaining is insensitive to all my friends that are having very difficult days. I just really don't know how to handle this and DH just doesn't want to hear that something bad could happen.
I'm trying not to cry today, to think this could be my time but I really don't know.
Thinking of all of you. I really wish I could take away your pain. No one deserves to have to go through all this.
My RE had me do a beta this afternoon and I have a repeat on Saturday. I keep thinking do my boobs hurt a little less ? Are those cramps a good sign or a bad one. I don't know how I can wait over 2 weeks for an u/s.
I guest even with good news an IF girls worries are never over. I know I need to hope. I'm just finding it really hard tonight. I know there's nothing I can do to change what will happen.
I'm sorry if my complaining is insensitive to all my friends that are having very difficult days. I just really don't know how to handle this and DH just doesn't want to hear that something bad could happen.
I'm trying not to cry today, to think this could be my time but I really don't know.
Thinking of all of you. I really wish I could take away your pain. No one deserves to have to go through all this.
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I POAS this morning and guest what missed the stick all together. I must have done it over 100 times with no problem and this is the one I mess up.
You just have to laugh.
With all you have been through, its not surprising you are having doubts. But this is your special vacation and hubbys 40th b-day baby. This one will be the one. You have to hold onto that hope. And do not drive yourself nuts! I think its pretty funny you missed the stick this morning. Maybe thats your body telling you not to stress or worry. I know your beta tomorrow will be perfect! Stay stong! XOXO
It\'s only natural to feel the way you are, we are always going to worry whatever. But many congratulations and long may it continue!! Xx
Praying for you and your having perfectly natural feelings. Congratulations though, it\'s very exciting. Keep us posted with your Beta #\'s
You are not at all insensitive. After all you have been through, it is perfectly natural to be scared now. The waiting in between just never goes fast enough leaving us to our own thoughts and feelings. It is so easy to convince ourselves that something is wrong or that baby isn\'t going to make it. But, our fears are not always right. Please try to keep hoping! This can last!!!
I actually just did laugh that you missed the stick. That is freaking hilarious. Hope you are feeling better today....I find myself searching for ways to get a Beta #4 done without the clinic\'s knowledge.
Totally normal to be terrified....especially after the last year. I\'m sure you\'ll get nothing but good news tomorrow :-)