Now I'm terrified
We'll I have gotten over the inital shock wave of happiness with my BFP this morning and I have now move on to terrified. I keep thinking it's going to end in a chemical pregnancy or a MC. I really want to be happy but it's so early and so much can go wrong.
My RE had me do a beta this afternoon and I have a repeat on Saturday. I keep thinking do my boobs hurt a little less ? Are those cramps a good sign or a bad one. I don't know how I can wait over 2 weeks for an u/s.
I guest even with good news an IF girls worries are never over. I know I need to hope. I'm just finding it really hard tonight. I know there's nothing I can do to change what will happen.
I'm sorry if my complaining is insensitive to all my friends that are having very difficult days. I just really don't know how to handle this and DH just doesn't want to hear that something bad could happen.
I'm trying not to cry today, to think this could be my time but I really don't know.
Thinking of all of you. I really wish I could take away your pain. No one deserves to have to go through all this.
My RE had me do a beta this afternoon and I have a repeat on Saturday. I keep thinking do my boobs hurt a little less ? Are those cramps a good sign or a bad one. I don't know how I can wait over 2 weeks for an u/s.
I guest even with good news an IF girls worries are never over. I know I need to hope. I'm just finding it really hard tonight. I know there's nothing I can do to change what will happen.
I'm sorry if my complaining is insensitive to all my friends that are having very difficult days. I just really don't know how to handle this and DH just doesn't want to hear that something bad could happen.
I'm trying not to cry today, to think this could be my time but I really don't know.
Thinking of all of you. I really wish I could take away your pain. No one deserves to have to go through all this.
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I can\'t even imagine the worry that sets in once you\'ve got a BFP. I think I\'d worry from i found out onwards!!!! DH always says if we get preg I\'ll give our baby a complex lol :) I hope you\'re able to relax a bit and try not to think about it (impossible I know). A gf of mine was a bit of a worrier, especially in the first part of her pregnancy, and she found Celestial Seasonings tea \"tension tamer\" helped quite a bit B-) I think you can find it at any health food store!!
Congrats again =)
I think what you are feeling is normal. Try to stay positive. There is more of a chance that everything will be fine. I know it\'s hard not to worry. But, try not to think about the negative and live for the moment!
Even though I\'ve never been in your situation I can certainly understand the paralyzing fear that you are feeling. I\'m scared shitless too, and you know I\'m looking for any symptom for reassurance. No matter how this ends up Roxy you HAVE to hope. IF does a number on us, but one thing we cannot give up on is HOPE (or faith, or whatever you want to call it). Grab on to DHs optimism (mine is the same) and hold on to that. We cannot control our outcomes, so hope is the only thing we have. Wishing you a restful night (last night I dreamed with zombies so not very restful). Cannot wait to hear on your beta tomorrow.
Oh goodness! I can totally relate! I am just paralyzed with worry. I peed on another stick this morning and thank goodness it was a tiny bit darker (but so was my urine) yesterday smells got to me and today not so much... So I just don\'t no. Whatever will be will be. At least a bfp is a bfp and a more controlled setting doesn\'t change the odds of a chemical pregnancy... Gosh I hope we can both relax! Big hug if twin :)
It\'s normal! I ended up buying a fetal heartbeat Doppler so I can hear the babies heartbeats. I understand. I have to wait 4 weeks to my next u/s (I\'m two weeks in) and its just torture!!! Stay positive. Even when I thought I was having a MC, I was still trying to think positive. :-) thinking about you!!!
It makes perfect sense that you would worry and feel nervous after all you\'ve been though! It\'s really a shame how IF takes away what should be a happy time. I hope you can find some peace and enjoy this time, even if just for a little while. xoxo
I just wish I hadn\'t had to test so early. I\'m glad I did so I could talk to my RE about it and I\'m reassured I\'m now on meds.
I think my hormones are making me nuts but your girls are really helping.
I\'m so lucky to have such a great support group.
hugs sorry you are feelnig this way and as hard as it is especially with meds and hormones raging throguh your body but try to treat yourself and just ride the waves... i have no doubt this is your time and cant wait to hear all the updates... and before you know it that little baby will be in your arms
Sorry you have all sorts of body things happening. So normal to wonder and question. I know that DH\'s are no help, because they don\'t want to commiserate! We are though! We can analyze every cramp, pain, sore boob, etc. I hope this one sticks for you and you get a good Beta score!
So happy for you and sending positive vibes for a smooth 9 months !!! Xoxo
Praying for a healthy and happy pregnancy. Just live in the moment and don\'t think about tomorrow. Just enjoy your BFP and keep your self busy & distracted.
I\'d say don\'t stress but you will and I\'m going to believe you\' ll be stressing for the next 30 something weeks.
I feel like I have no words of encouragement for you bc I know nothing I can say will actually make you worry less! All I can say is I\'m gonna stop and pray for you and your baby right now!
Oh gosh! Who would think good news could be so tough! I hate if! Sticky baby dust!
You are not being insensitive at all, Roxy! To wait so long to become pregnant and gone through all you with your history, I can imagine how terrified you are right now. We are all pulling for you just try your best to think something going wrong just isn\'t an option. ( I\'m sure easier said than done)