Nothin\' much really

Just sitting here feeling a feeling I've always gotten since I was a kid.  I wanna disappear, with my son of course.  I want to live a different life.  I've always had these urges of moving somewhere where nobody knows me.  I don't know where I'd actually go but I know where I'd be if I could snap my fingers and have a wish.  I'd be living in another country working as an activist for wild life.  Preferably...Gorillas.  I remember when the movie came out...Gorillas in the Mist...and I knew that's where I wished I could be.  My entire life has been this feeling that I'm supposed to be doing something other than what I actually do.  I don't just mean a job, I mean a reason why I am here.  Please don't misunderstand me...I live a life of complete gratitude, and I know my focus and reason for being born is my son.  However...what I speak of is something that lies deep within me and drives me.  Working with and helping dogs has become my obsession.  I found myself searching ads of people looking to adopt certain dogs and sending them to particular rescues where they have dogs meeting their criteria.  I can't stop myself.  These people aren't asking for my help and yet I feel compelled to try.  I guess if I reach even one person and helped one dog...I've done my part.  What I'm learning is how uneducated people are when it comes to owning a dog. So I guess I'm adopting the role of the teacher whether they ask me or not!  How obnoxiuos am I?LOL Anyways...just had to ramble for a bit, trying to make a little sence of why I do some of the things I do.  I mean...who does that? Please remember, you are all in my prayers tonight.