notes after services

I awoke this morning and felt the stress that

a mental wrong turn or really a mental flip flop

gave me - I felt out of step and lost - and yet I realized I definitely need to keep

at this one step in front of the other idea -

but another fortifying and affirming thought was also 

that we may have great ability and focus at times -

and yet then stressful moments and fatigue - can

make us feel insecure and like we have to 'catch up with or to ourselves"

The thought just really helped me keep on keeping on -

And so I was in services this morning - well ..... behind the screen in services -

and this thought just helped me keep on keeping on - 

and it also helped me see that we were all kind of bumping into 

each other - getting the job done - 

and so I thought about 'living in grace' is an idea that might be affirming (like they say in church)

but it's important to also be able to live outside of grace when those moments

eventually ocurr - 

Realizing that helped me keep on keeping on - and not take things so personally

when people seemed gruff or pushy or short -

I felt like I wasn't so important - but then I thought to search my mind for things

I was good at - and that was affirming - and after all that the services, all went

well with my churchmates and me - And I realized we all have to value ourselves

and that value can be really galvinizing with our life's direction and motivation!

Sending peace for a good day ahead!