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I am feeling like every time I get close to feeling pleasurable about my life - I get afraid and I feel I should change
myself. I wonder what would be good for me to do with my life and I think I need to walk humbly with that idea.
There is no right answer - and I would be grateful for the community I eventually find myself in. I have to remember "I will be there with that community" and it's not like I will have to be "nobody" to get along.
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I tend to get more anxious when my life is going well than when it's going to Hell in a hand-basket. I think it's because I have more to lose when my life is going well. My therapy supporters who accuse me of being a chaos junkie think it's because, like any proper junkie, I crave the chaos I am familiar with.
Gentle hug sweetie.... You are a somebody to me.....I'm sorry you're feeling afraid Mark......xo
thanks guys. xo