not the greatest day
i hurt.
well currently i don't hurt that much due to medicine earlier, but still.
yesterday at work my manager had me unload the truck. i lifted way too much weight and dropped a box into my pelvic area. long story short later on last night after work i started experiencing pain. now today i'm in a fuckload of pain. so bad this afternoon that i'd put it at about a 7 out of a 10. having to use the bathroom, breathe through it, take my medicine, lay down, etc. it wasn't good. i'm still having some pain. plus my left hip is really bothering me since i hit the box partially into it.
work can seriously fuck off. i am not going to unload that truck ever again. i really don't give a fuck if it gets me fired. in addition to the box thing i managed to get my arms cut up too. i only get paid $7.25 hr and work 5 hour shift max. like twice a week. me getting injured is not worth that bullshit. nor is putting up with management that treats me like garbage and wants to schedule me for hours i told them i won't work.
i am so fucking sick of being in pain. I WANT IT TO STOP. i hate taking pills. i know i could take like two after i have dinner in a bit and i would feel just fine with no pain. but i'd also be seriously fucked up/out of it. its like whats better- being in pain and not being fucked up, or being fucked up but having no pain?
i'm just thankful that me getting this out on "paper" helps me out. i really do feel a tiny bit better after doing so. i really want to remain positive everyday, but its just really hard. i want to be that upbeat, down for anything, fun loving girl i used to be before i had all this pain. its not to say that i'm not that completely but its like part of me has been crushed.
i don't know. i think im off to put comfortable clothing on, eat dinner, take my meds and relax.
well currently i don't hurt that much due to medicine earlier, but still.
yesterday at work my manager had me unload the truck. i lifted way too much weight and dropped a box into my pelvic area. long story short later on last night after work i started experiencing pain. now today i'm in a fuckload of pain. so bad this afternoon that i'd put it at about a 7 out of a 10. having to use the bathroom, breathe through it, take my medicine, lay down, etc. it wasn't good. i'm still having some pain. plus my left hip is really bothering me since i hit the box partially into it.
work can seriously fuck off. i am not going to unload that truck ever again. i really don't give a fuck if it gets me fired. in addition to the box thing i managed to get my arms cut up too. i only get paid $7.25 hr and work 5 hour shift max. like twice a week. me getting injured is not worth that bullshit. nor is putting up with management that treats me like garbage and wants to schedule me for hours i told them i won't work.
i am so fucking sick of being in pain. I WANT IT TO STOP. i hate taking pills. i know i could take like two after i have dinner in a bit and i would feel just fine with no pain. but i'd also be seriously fucked up/out of it. its like whats better- being in pain and not being fucked up, or being fucked up but having no pain?
i'm just thankful that me getting this out on "paper" helps me out. i really do feel a tiny bit better after doing so. i really want to remain positive everyday, but its just really hard. i want to be that upbeat, down for anything, fun loving girl i used to be before i had all this pain. its not to say that i'm not that completely but its like part of me has been crushed.
i don't know. i think im off to put comfortable clothing on, eat dinner, take my meds and relax.
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