Not sure why...

... but today things to be bothering me a lot more.  I guess it could just be depression... a dip in the emotional rollercoaster.  It isn't overwhelming, but I certainly don't feel as positive as I did yesterday.  Hopefully this is as bad as it gets.  I need to remind myself... my wife only loved me, and only wanted me.  The OM was just someone to talk to about stupid stuff.  She didn't want the sexual aspect of their chats, and didn't really even desire him.  Like her and I discussed last night... the thought of being with someone else physically just seems strange and uncomfortable.  Sure, I can think about it in passing, but when I actually try to picture the act, that is where things get screwey.