not off to a good start today

Well, I'm just starting the day and I'm already feeling stressed. Just spoke with my son's p.o and he didn't know anything about him getting cited for controlled substance, so I don't know what's going to happen to him. My son talked to me yesterday and swears he bought the bong but was only smoking some kind of a legal herb, and that he was cited for residue which his roommates friends were smoking pot. As I write this I'm thinking I must be an idiot to believe this, especially with is history of lying, but seeing my boy crying and telling me how hard it is for him and he's really trying, I just don't know. Is he just playing me again or what? I like to  think that I know him but maybe I don't know him at all. I also know that addiction is prone to relapse, but there's a difference between a relapse and a lifestyle. I want so much to believe him. He was crying and he doesn't like to cry, but is that part of the deception now? He sounds so sincere, but the evidence shows something else. To top it off, today is my day to take care of my mother. That's always stressful. Well, I'm crying now, so I'm going to do my steps on the treadmill. I will update this evening. going to try to keep my eating in check through this.