not doing well
Doing very badly - decided I would go to a GA meeting again. I know what's right and what I'm supposed to be doing but this monster takes over. The only way I can conquer it is with some help; though this site is great, I'm very sad tonight and realize that I can't do it without something else. Maybe it's GA... I'm totally disgusted with myself and the way I have given in to this.. I have a great life and don't need to ruin it over something like this ridiculous addiction. I am finally admitting i"m powerless over this! I absolutely give up trying to control it and will go to the next meeting in town and let you guys know how it is.
I'm sorry i have let myself down and others that had great faith in me and the fact that I was doing great. I have great support in you guys and I'm just sick over it and am actually so stessed right now I am feeling a pain in my chest and a monumental headache . . so will go and get some rest if possible.
SG
I'm sorry i have let myself down and others that had great faith in me and the fact that I was doing great. I have great support in you guys and I'm just sick over it and am actually so stessed right now I am feeling a pain in my chest and a monumental headache . . so will go and get some rest if possible.
SG
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Just pick ypur self up, and stop beating yourself up and start over. No one ever said this was going to be easy, most of us have tried to quit many times before it finelly kicks in. This is a addiction that takes over our whole life. You did not let anyone down, we have all been there. I just got finished reading Gripped by Gambling, if you haven\'t read it yet I would get it, there is so much info in this book. We are all here for each other.
Hugs Steph
Like Steph said, stop beating yourself up and start over. I had many slips until I finally learned that I was powerless over this. Going to GA meetings sounds like a wonderful idea! Just hang in there and take it ODAAT. Just don\'t give up! Keep fighting, this is a fight that is worth fighting. Peace and Love. Patty
Just like you, I have had to teach myself the same lesson over and over and over again. I can\'t control gambling. For me, plans and strategies and spending limits go right out the window when the monster gets ahold of me. The one thing that saves me is coming here for the fellowship and inspiration and understanding...I want to try GA, but meetings are so far away from me. I hope your meetings help, it would be great to have a ftf community as well as the online one. Just never, never give up....Hugs, Dianne