not doing so well today tues oct 11, 2011 eve

well im sitting in the computer chair for a while. my stupid behind still hurts, had to lay down AGAIN. didnt realy sleep got up in about an hour. trying to move side to side, but  then it hurts there. aunt found grannies wheel chair pillow and you air it up. that sounds so comfortable. i cant wait. i mean its an ok day i guess. not so bad. took pain pills twice today. am  going to run out fast.       why do i do that. this morning, i realy wasnt in much pain at all, but took a full or over full amount of the pain pills, that is not good. i think im getting very bored and lonly, thats not good. cant leave and realy go anywere, they all do there own thing and im kinda alone alot even w/ people in the house. i talk sises ear off and     bro in law they are  just very  quiet andf dont talk all the time,                          he ussually watching the cable and she is online   olot. so im very glad i have this site, i dont feel SO LONLY.  i just        dont know. this butt thing  has to get etter eventually, its been                             3 weeks, i mean come on allready. ok, going to move on to something else. want to watch some shows at 9 p.m. so ill be back on either later or tommorow. ok, by for nwo.                                  lord please give me the strenght to                       get threw this butt pain thing and to not take so meny pain pills. its not good. im thinkning of them       right now. i know its only been allmost               3 weeks, but owwwwwww. i mean come on  please, in jesus name , AMEN