Not bad, so far

  Had a pretty good sleep last night. Stayed on the computer too late again. Seems like I just love being on it at night, and it's hard getting off. At that time it's quiet, and no ones around to bother me, except Jet. She acts like she's telling me to go to bed. She starts meowing, and hollering at me, and won't stop until I go to bed. As soon as I get off the computer she runs to the bedroom and jumps on the bed. When I get in she's quiet. I think I'm going to start making 12 o'clock my cut off time. I'll try. Supposed to be working with Paul today, if he ever gets here. He said 11, but so far no Paul as usual. Marty came by today. I'm really finding him, and most others around here very anoying. Their constantly bumming everything. I know sometimes it's hard, and I know what it's like to not have, but I was brought up to not do that. Even at my worst times I never bum things from people. I find that embaressing. Perhaps the odd time I've been without smokes and asked for one, but that's very rare for me. It's especially anoying because these people all have addictions, and all their money goes to that. I don't care if people have addictions, but you need to look after your own shit, and not use people. That's how I feel, that I'm being used because I'm a nice guy. I find once these people see that in you, they try to take advantage of it. They don't seem to respect you at all for it. And it's a daily thing with them. One after the other, "Can I have this, Can I have that?" All day long it goes on. Marty comes over and first thing, " Can I have a smoke?" I tried saying I didn't have enough, but they were right there so I give him one. "Can I have a lite?" I grit my teeth a bit, "Alright." Then I'm shaving. James, do you have some creamer I can borrow?' I wondered, "What the fuck?" So I said alright, but I only had the real cream in the litre container. He took it downstairs I guess to a car or something. Then he sits down and starts talking. About five times I tried getting a word in, but he kept cutting me off. So I just got on the computer and tried ignoring him. Then when he's about to leave, "Can I get another smoke?" Like, holy fuck. I can't afford to have people like that around. I'm on welfare, and don't make much, but I take care of myself. I must have given out at least half a pack of cigarettes yesterday to people that are users. Starting to get to me a lot. i don't like having users around me. They just don't care or anything. Just always out for what they can get. Marty is on welfare too. He lives with a lady that's on disabilty and gets at least $1000.00 a month. He works and makes more money than I do, but never has a thing. That's pretty pathetic. Anyway, just bitching here. Time to start saying NO!