Not again!!!!!
Grrrr..it happened again. Not so bad this time but bad enough that I couldn't enjoy an evening out with my mother. We had plans to go to the School Ulumni Annual Get Together. It was just so frustating,,,so, of course, i cried alot. Friggin sux. We had this planned for weeks, even bought a new shirt. After having that attack last time i was at my oldest daughters, me and mom agreed to visit with jamie(my oldest D) before going, and if i felt for any reason i felt i couldn't go then she would go then pick me up afterwards to come home. Well, thats exactly what happened....it came on slowly..god, i just bummed me out soooo bad. Felt so lightheaded, heart a pumpin away, arms&hands tingling...i couldnt go. Everyone said they understood and stood by me, reassuring me that it was okay. I felt SOOOO embarrased and mad at myself and tellin myself how stupid it all was. Later on after my mom left, Jamie pulled up some clips from youtube about anxiety. There was one that i especially liked and have saved to my pc. I will try to put the link here..lol..hopefully i do it right. Anyhoo, the guy speakin really made me calmer and brought forth some laughs, i loved it. http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=784217436&v=wall&story_fbid=133033780042174 Tsss...man i hope thats the right link..it said shortcut to it..so......
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