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I don't fit in anywhere. I feel like a freak. I'm a girl physically, but sometimes I feel male. Not just feeling alittle tomboyish or whatever, but I feel like a total male in a female body. Other times I am fine as a girl however. And its not just that. My sexuality changes as well! I can feel like a gay or bi male, a straight male, a les/bi girl, or a straight girl. It is very confusing. I have no idea what to do about this. How do I go on in life when my gender and sexuality is constantly changing? It is not like I feel like someone who is just FTM. I can't change my body to fit what I am feeling, cause I obviously can't get surgery every day. I don't even know how to express myself! I just have no fucking clue what to do.

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You aren\'t a freak. There are a lot of people like you (nobody exactly like you, of course.) It\'s hard to find a place to fit when you are different. But it\'s not impossible. You don\'t have to know what to do or what to label yourself.
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You are not a freak, we all have those feelings. You can chose to presue them or you can chose to ignore them and let them go out of control. And u could be Androgynous, It basically means you dont feel like a specific gender.
Madalyn is right, you dont have to label yourself, just be you, and if you dont know who u are, just know that most of us dont ;) that doesnt make it the end of the world, it makes it the beginning of a quest to find yourself, and its a wonderful, hard, and fun journey, you will be glad you went. the hardest step is the first.
It will be hard, nothing in life comes easy, it will have its pros and cons, but it will all be worth it in the end.
*hugs*