No way!

Well, I left work in tears tonight!  I can't handle these side effects of the Lupron!  I sat in a dark and empty dining room the last 20 minutes of my shift because I couldn't even think about being in a room with other people in it!  I work in the sports club and grille for crying out loud and I can't even deal with customers without getting pissed off!  This is absolutely insane!  I am not like this at all!  I love what I do, and the thought of not wanting to be around people is depressing!   I wanted to enjoy a glass of wine with my husband after work and I couldn't bring myself to do it!  All I wanted to do is come home and be alone.  Not that I really WANTED that, I just can't see sitting with other people, most of which are my friends, and holding on conversations and having a few laughs, it just wasn't going to happen!  I tried to shake it off by sitting and talking with them and I got irritated within 10 minutes and had to walk away!  I tried several times thinking that it would go away, that I could talk myself out of it or something, get myself into a different groove.  NOPE!  Didn't happen! I tried to take care of the unable to focus thing due to last night at work by taking ginko biloba,( which I have had really good luck with in the past ) and all it did was give me uselss energy!  I might as well as have been walking in circles, I would have at least been doing something constructive like making myself dizzy!  I tried to do very mundane tasks like filling salt and pepper shakers and I kept going back to the ones I had already filled! I will be making a phone call to my gyno Monday morning for sure, that is if I REMEMBER!!