No title needed for this Part 2
Damn I wish I could have a few good days back to back, maybe just for this week!
1. I am tired- so everything I do will be a struggle, then I will be annoyed. Fact!
2. I am still trying to do everything(including this) and I am getting more & more tired.
3. I have a lot do so being tired really does not matter, I have a school deadline and a sick child!!!
4. And this is just a bonus, I do not think my daughter loves/like me. Idk why? My mother is not here anymore and I know I want my relationship with my daughter to be better MORE now because of this FACT!!
1a. I am taking too many sleeping aids and I am not getting "real" sleep. I have not had a "good night" rest since the gun shot night.
1b. I have not really enjoyed myself since either, (pause for thinking), it is taking a lot of me lately to put on makeup and smile. I am worn out by end of day. Today was the worse, because I do not think that I slept last night and my job required too much of my energy.
5. I have not told anyone at my job about my son getting shot. I am ashamed and I know it is not his fault or mine. But I am black, I live in a bad area that is commonly known for this sort of thing. I don't want a lot of Insensitive questions and pity stares, like with my mother's sickness. However, I am asking my job, manager and coworker to be patient with my constant absences. Idk what to do?!
good night.
1. I am tired- so everything I do will be a struggle, then I will be annoyed. Fact!
2. I am still trying to do everything(including this) and I am getting more & more tired.
3. I have a lot do so being tired really does not matter, I have a school deadline and a sick child!!!
4. And this is just a bonus, I do not think my daughter loves/like me. Idk why? My mother is not here anymore and I know I want my relationship with my daughter to be better MORE now because of this FACT!!
1a. I am taking too many sleeping aids and I am not getting "real" sleep. I have not had a "good night" rest since the gun shot night.
1b. I have not really enjoyed myself since either, (pause for thinking), it is taking a lot of me lately to put on makeup and smile. I am worn out by end of day. Today was the worse, because I do not think that I slept last night and my job required too much of my energy.
5. I have not told anyone at my job about my son getting shot. I am ashamed and I know it is not his fault or mine. But I am black, I live in a bad area that is commonly known for this sort of thing. I don't want a lot of Insensitive questions and pity stares, like with my mother's sickness. However, I am asking my job, manager and coworker to be patient with my constant absences. Idk what to do?!
good night.
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Sorry for all you\'re going through. About your daughter, I don\'t know how old she is but in my experience all teenage girls don\'t like their mothers for a while. And then they do - they love us. But it\'s tempting to put a lot of pressure on the relationship because she\'s a woman, and you want that mother-comfort from her.
I\'m really sorry you\'re going through so much. Sending you a big, motherly hug.