No longer remember......

I realize, I no longer remember what it feels like to feel good.  I came down with a virus as a teenager and since that time I remember thinking I never feel quite right.  If I did too much I would think I was coming down with the flu.  I was able to work and function, but never felt great.  Now, that I have been diagnosed with CFS/ME, I realize that all the body pains, the moments of fatigue, the mixing up of words, standing and feeling like I was going to pass out and the walking into door frames are all parts of this disease.  In some ways, I do feel better knowing that how I had been feeling wasn't just in my head.  That I have been dealing with symptoms most of my life, just at different severities, until finally my body could no longer return to a place where I could work or truly function the way most people function.  My days are now filled with more rest times then up an about times, but still I try to maintain a quality life.  I just no longer remember what it feels like to feel normal, free of pain, to be heatlhy......