no help

i called to set up an appointment w a mental health Dr. but my insurance i know will not cover it it never covered anything so i gave up on using it. The price i can not afford being in college and already owing so much money. I decided to not get the help i ve worked so hard to find only because of never being able to afford it. I mostly feel sorry for my fiance because he puts up w me already and helpped me find the help for one last time but we cannot afford it. Basically he is stuck w me for who i am cutter, bipolar, whoever. I feel as if every person i ve tried to get help from has quit or left me. Its difficult and hard at this point on both of us