No colour in my life...!

  I am still here, still stable and still haven't had my picture painted...blahhh! It is hard work staying in the land of the living feeling like this but what else can I do? Please don't tell me ok.                                           How do I do another day,                                         when all I feel is dead?                                          How can I overcome,                                     when the beast is within me?                                          I need to see things,                                            in a brighter light,                                     but I only see black and white,                                      where there should be colour,                                  it wouldn't take much to fade away,                                       but I want so bad to hold on,                                 change may be just around the corner.