NINTH CIRCLE OF HELL

GUYS, I AM IN THE NINTH RING OF HELL!! THIS IS NOW DAY 7 WITHOUT SLEEP, IT IS ALMOST 3 IN THE MORNING AND I AM STILL UP!! HAD A LONG....SESSION WITH MY COUNSELLOR ONTHURSDAY. I WAS A BLUBBERING IDIOT!! SHE CALLED MY PDOC IN. HE RECOMMENDED I TAKE THE EXTRA SEROQUEL LIKE LAST TIME. BUT I HAD A TERRIBLE...EXPERIENCE WITH IT BUT IT DID MAKE ME SLEEP. AND RIGHT NOW THE LACK OF SLEEP IS DEEPENING MY DEPRESSION AND THE DEPRESSION AFFECTS MY SLEEP. WHAT A VICIOUS CYCLE!!! SO I TOOK THE SEROQUEL LAST NIGHT. NOW THAT WAS FUN....HALLUCINATING, TALKING, YELLING I MY SLEEP, CRAWLING ON THE FLOOR LOOKING FOR SOMETHING AND I COULD NOT SPEAK JUST MUMBLE. I WAS ALSO VERY SICK IN MY STOMACH! I WAS LAID OUT MOST OF THE DAY FROM IT. I HAVE TO TAKE IT AGAIN TONIGHT/MORNING. BUT I REALLY DON'T WANT TOO. HE SAID I COULD ALSO GET ADMITTED TO THE HOSPITAL AND BE HEAVILY SEDATED...NO THANKS!!!
ANYWAY, I AM NOT UP TO ANYTHING RIGHT NOW SO I WILL BE AWAY FROM DS FOR AWHILE YET. THANKS EVERYBODY FOR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS.
DEBBIE