New Year euugggh
Well its just over 24 hours til we can wave goodbye to this year. Since the day you left us all I've said is I can't wait for this horrible year to be over but now I'm scared of it being over. At least I had you in my life in 2013. 2014 all I'll have are my memories of you and that really terrifies me. I don't want just memories, I wanted to make more with you.
Although its been the worst year imaginable its also been the best because for the first 7 amazing months I had you. I started the year waking up in the arms of the man I love and it doesn't get better than that. You were the most hungover I'd ever seen you in New Years Day, you were literally green when we got up. I drove you home and you had your first ride in my old car Chitty, you had to sit in the back seat coz the passenger door was broke so you were taking the piss out of him as usual, that poor car was always getting picked on by you and you asked if I'd go mad at you if you threw up in him. I was like don't you dare lol. You recovered by the next day and we went to our first match at Anfield together. I came to yours first and you laughed your head off at how many layers I had on. Your dad shouted out as we were leaving 'Don't be crying when you get beat' Typical blue, my dad said exactly the same lol. We went to the Weatherspoons for some food first and it all kicked off in there, some man off his face drunk saying the bar staff were all racists and he was going to the Echo. You were loving the drama weren't you? Then it was match time, the atmosphere was really strange but we won at least and then when we got back to yours and you made me watch it again on MOTD. I was like why we've just watched it for real and you were like yer but we didn't get the replay of the goals did we haha.
The end of January we headed off for the best weekend of my life, 4 days in Scotland in a cabin looking over Loch Linnhe. You drove us up and even let me listen to my Spice Girls Greatest Hits cd.You were loving it just as much as me, you knew every word. I'll never forget the first night when we just stood out for ages looking at all the stars, it really was beautiful. We had such an amazing weekend and I didn't want it to end.
A few weeks later I got to treat you for your birthday, I made a point of reminding you up that you were a quarter of a century old and you kept telling me to sod off. We went to Anfield again the night of your birthday. We'd had a lovely lunch with your family that afternoon and then I popped home to layer myself up again ready to brave the cold. Although we got knocked out it was such a good game, the atmosphere was amazing and we had such a good night even though it was absolutely freezing! Even you complained you were cold so I knew something was wrong.
The next big thing was your Toms 21st party, that was such a great night and I was absolutely made up to be there with you and to meet the rest of your lovely family. You headed off for your holiday of a lifetime at the end of March with your family, Vegas and Florida for two weeks. You were so excited about it! I missed you so much when you went, you still messaged me everyday though and kept making me jealous with all your photos! I was so excited the day you got back but I was at the Grand National with the girls so I had to wait an extra day to see you. That Sunday I was soo hungover but I was that excited to see you that the hangover had no chance of winning. I think I literally jumped on you when I got to yours and seen you and you give me such a massive hug and just held onto to me for ages. I was so glad you had such a good time. All you kept saying was you'd have to take me to Vegas one day.
The next few months I feel like we just got closer and closer and I fell more and more in love with you. We went to see the Lion King, we finally got to find out what the fuss was about the Hickory smokehouse, we started planning our own holiday trying to decide where we'd go. We had so many good nights at yours over the summer and at your auntie chris's and with all your friends. I loved every second I spend with you whether it was just snuggled up to you on the sofa or heading out for a night out.
Then in July we had our Liams' big graduation bbq, you'd only met my close family until then but that night everyone was there. I don't think I'd even seen half of them since my graduation. It was mental, my dad and my auntie done gangham style for us, our Tony scarred us for life with his mangina, I didn't think you'd ever want to come to another family party of ours after that but you loved it haha. I was so proud to have you there with me too and to show off how amazing my boyfriend was to them all. They all instantly loved you and were like you got a good'un there ain't ya Rach? I had the best one in you. A few days later you gave me the most special and memorable birthday ever. I'll never forget it and cant thank you enough for it. I was already panicking what to do for you for your birthday to beat that! I just never could have imagined 9 days after that you'd be gone. I remember the last night I stayed at yours like it was yesterday, you scared the life out of me hiding behind the door and laughed about it all night. I remember lying in bed with you that night and you were just laying on my tummy talking to me saying when we had kids you wouldn't talk to me, you'd just talk to the bump. I was like cheers babe haha. Its just not fair we never got our chance of a long and happy future together. It makes no sense. We should be together now ready to see in another year together.
I just want to thank you for the best year and a bit of my life, every moment with you was special and I still feel so lucky to have met you and to have fallen in love with you and have you love me back. Thanks for making me the happiest I've ever been and thanks for making me feel so loved. I just hope I made you feel the same and that you realised how special you were. You weren't just my boyfriend, you were my best friend, my soul mate, the love of my life and I miss you so much. Its going to be hard starting a whole new year without you but I know you'll always be with me in my heart and mind. Nobody can ever take the amazing memories away or the love I have for you away from me. I miss you so much it hurts and I wish everyday I could have you back. I will love you forever and a day babe and I will see you again one day so you better be waiting for me xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Although its been the worst year imaginable its also been the best because for the first 7 amazing months I had you. I started the year waking up in the arms of the man I love and it doesn't get better than that. You were the most hungover I'd ever seen you in New Years Day, you were literally green when we got up. I drove you home and you had your first ride in my old car Chitty, you had to sit in the back seat coz the passenger door was broke so you were taking the piss out of him as usual, that poor car was always getting picked on by you and you asked if I'd go mad at you if you threw up in him. I was like don't you dare lol. You recovered by the next day and we went to our first match at Anfield together. I came to yours first and you laughed your head off at how many layers I had on. Your dad shouted out as we were leaving 'Don't be crying when you get beat' Typical blue, my dad said exactly the same lol. We went to the Weatherspoons for some food first and it all kicked off in there, some man off his face drunk saying the bar staff were all racists and he was going to the Echo. You were loving the drama weren't you? Then it was match time, the atmosphere was really strange but we won at least and then when we got back to yours and you made me watch it again on MOTD. I was like why we've just watched it for real and you were like yer but we didn't get the replay of the goals did we haha.
The end of January we headed off for the best weekend of my life, 4 days in Scotland in a cabin looking over Loch Linnhe. You drove us up and even let me listen to my Spice Girls Greatest Hits cd.You were loving it just as much as me, you knew every word. I'll never forget the first night when we just stood out for ages looking at all the stars, it really was beautiful. We had such an amazing weekend and I didn't want it to end.
A few weeks later I got to treat you for your birthday, I made a point of reminding you up that you were a quarter of a century old and you kept telling me to sod off. We went to Anfield again the night of your birthday. We'd had a lovely lunch with your family that afternoon and then I popped home to layer myself up again ready to brave the cold. Although we got knocked out it was such a good game, the atmosphere was amazing and we had such a good night even though it was absolutely freezing! Even you complained you were cold so I knew something was wrong.
The next big thing was your Toms 21st party, that was such a great night and I was absolutely made up to be there with you and to meet the rest of your lovely family. You headed off for your holiday of a lifetime at the end of March with your family, Vegas and Florida for two weeks. You were so excited about it! I missed you so much when you went, you still messaged me everyday though and kept making me jealous with all your photos! I was so excited the day you got back but I was at the Grand National with the girls so I had to wait an extra day to see you. That Sunday I was soo hungover but I was that excited to see you that the hangover had no chance of winning. I think I literally jumped on you when I got to yours and seen you and you give me such a massive hug and just held onto to me for ages. I was so glad you had such a good time. All you kept saying was you'd have to take me to Vegas one day.
The next few months I feel like we just got closer and closer and I fell more and more in love with you. We went to see the Lion King, we finally got to find out what the fuss was about the Hickory smokehouse, we started planning our own holiday trying to decide where we'd go. We had so many good nights at yours over the summer and at your auntie chris's and with all your friends. I loved every second I spend with you whether it was just snuggled up to you on the sofa or heading out for a night out.
Then in July we had our Liams' big graduation bbq, you'd only met my close family until then but that night everyone was there. I don't think I'd even seen half of them since my graduation. It was mental, my dad and my auntie done gangham style for us, our Tony scarred us for life with his mangina, I didn't think you'd ever want to come to another family party of ours after that but you loved it haha. I was so proud to have you there with me too and to show off how amazing my boyfriend was to them all. They all instantly loved you and were like you got a good'un there ain't ya Rach? I had the best one in you. A few days later you gave me the most special and memorable birthday ever. I'll never forget it and cant thank you enough for it. I was already panicking what to do for you for your birthday to beat that! I just never could have imagined 9 days after that you'd be gone. I remember the last night I stayed at yours like it was yesterday, you scared the life out of me hiding behind the door and laughed about it all night. I remember lying in bed with you that night and you were just laying on my tummy talking to me saying when we had kids you wouldn't talk to me, you'd just talk to the bump. I was like cheers babe haha. Its just not fair we never got our chance of a long and happy future together. It makes no sense. We should be together now ready to see in another year together.
I just want to thank you for the best year and a bit of my life, every moment with you was special and I still feel so lucky to have met you and to have fallen in love with you and have you love me back. Thanks for making me the happiest I've ever been and thanks for making me feel so loved. I just hope I made you feel the same and that you realised how special you were. You weren't just my boyfriend, you were my best friend, my soul mate, the love of my life and I miss you so much. Its going to be hard starting a whole new year without you but I know you'll always be with me in my heart and mind. Nobody can ever take the amazing memories away or the love I have for you away from me. I miss you so much it hurts and I wish everyday I could have you back. I will love you forever and a day babe and I will see you again one day so you better be waiting for me xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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Beautiful memories, Rachel. They\'re yours to keep and cherish forever, even though they can\'t take the pain away. I\'m dreading New Years Eve, think I\'m staying in with my family because last year I was sipping champagne at an Irish pub with Alex and his friends. Goodbye 2013!