New Mile Record

Today I set a new record for my mile, 24 minutes and 50 seconds. I walked 2 miles today, and so when I was at the one mile point I recorded my time. I pushed myself hard, walking as fast as I could in some places. I didn't want to run since sometimes running makes me walk slower when I'm resting, so I just walked the whole way. In LA I did a 25 minute 30 second mile on hills, and that was running too. I'm just glad that I'm starting to show improvement on my walking time. My New Year's Resolution is still on my mind. I'm not doing good on the eating slower, but I am doing good on the walk faster part. I can't wait until I can start passing people while walking. I'm still getting passed by regular people walking at their normal speed. I walk at Grandma speed. I feel bad when people pass me, so I want to be able to pass others. I used to be able to walk really fast, but that was in high school. I want to get back into the shape that I was in then, and then some. I want to do my marathon eventually, and so I have to get out there and keep on increasing my distances.
I only walked 2 miles today since I was going for a record time. I did the first mile in 25 minutes and the second in 28. Next time I go walking I'm going to try my 5k again, or more. I hope it doesn't rain this week, since I want to go walking. I don't mind walking in warm rain, but it's been cold here. My temperature widget on my computer says it's 55 degrees outside, so that's pretty cold. I went for my walk today and my hands were cold when I got home. I'm enjoying the cold weather, though, since I don't have to be outside a lot and it's much warmer in here than it was at my stepdad's. There I had big windows and a house with poor insulation. Here it's better, and it stays in the 70's for the most part inside. I don't mind it being cool outside... it's much better than it being hot. Warm I don't mind either, but we don't have many warm days. We go from cold to hot.
I've been working on the forgiveness thing still. I've been repeating that mantra that my therapist told me to and I've been trying to forgive my stepbrother. It's hard... I've been replaying the images in my mind over and over, since I need to think about what he did to be able to forgive him for it. It just sucks and I wonder if I'm going to go down in mood since I'm thinking about all this trauma. I don't know... I will have to see. I don't want to go into a depression because of it, but I want to get this over with. I could wait until the summer when I am normally in a better mood, but I might go to LA this May and he might be at my sister's graduation party. I think I would still recognize him, but I'm not sure. I know I can't see him again until I forgive him and get over it. If I saw him before, I would just lose it I think. My sister knows he abused me, she just doesn't know the extent of it. If I told her not to invite him, that may cause a problem since my stepmother (who adores my stepbrother) is the one planning the party and I'm sure she's going to invite him.
Mood today was good... I slept for most of the day, though. I feel good, though. I'm happy with myself at my record time for my walk, and I hope that when I do my 5k later this week I can come off with another good time. I just need to make sure I don't sleep all day Wednesday, my day off. Today I slept until 2pm. I was just so tired. I need to wake up early for work tomorrow, and so I need to go to sleep at a decent hour tonight. I went to sleep early last night, and woke up before noon. I ate breakfast, and then went back to sleep. I think I could have stayed up and not gone back to sleep, but I wanted to sleep. I love sleeping, so I try and sleep when I can. At least I got up and did my exercise. I think I could have slept even more, but I'm glad I didn't.
Food today was good. I'm good on my calories, I got 1,400 of them in today. I'm lower than my calorie tracker says I should be, but not by much. I'm just trying to be okay with being in my range instead of being below it. I'm low on my nutrients like protein and carbs, but that's okay. I can make up for that tomorrow. I could always eat a bit of yogurt if I feel like it, but I don't right now. If there's leftover past I might eat that, but I doubt there is any left over. I made chicken pesto cream sauce for dinner tonight, and it came out well. Stress today was low.... walking always helps calm me down, and even though I didn't need to be calmed down today, it was still nice to get that walk in.