New me?

laura I wish you could see what a transformation I have made. 

All those fears about marriage and children and basically having a life with you have been diminished. 

My cousillor has helped me a lot and I have done a huge amount of self work. 

I held a 3 month old which I doubt you would believe. A marriage would be such a testament to my love for you. 

Oh how I wish you could see me now and how far I've come. We could have that life you pictured while I was afraid of commitment. 

Even though we have no contact I pray somehow you know how hard I am trying and remember how good we are together. 

I love you!