NEVER UNDERSTAND
Trying to make others understand emotional pain, seems to make them angry. They may never understand. This is hard because you want them to not think of you as lazy, unmotivated or just plain crazy.
This site is wonderful because there are people here that are struggling as i am, and here you can let it all hang out. It is exhausting trying to hide and fake. I'm depressed and worried. There. I'm fighting the pain, but unfortunately i sometimes lose. What does that make me? A failure ? LOSER? Weak?
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STRONG!! You are dealing.
Others are trying to deal. They just hide it. They have issues that they hold deep and let out the anger at the wrong time. Because they can\'t deal, they think they are alone. When someone comes along who is dealing with it, they just can\'t handle it. They are really thinking, \"If only I could....\"
This is hard for all of us. I am struggling with this, myself. My husband get frustrated because of my handicaps. He seems to angry with me,. I try to be patient, but.............
We can relate. We are trying to deal. We care because............well, because.
I am just now reading your journal. Until I found responses (especially yours) to my own writing, I felt like I was encroaching on something private, Realizing this is the place we can dump our unhappy as well as happy (hard word for me to use) experiences and share them with those on site that want to take the time to know us better and give us support for our accomplishments and slips, is another new experience and tool for me. I am going through exactly what you are. At the moment, I\'m past the crying days for a while, and have managed to do some things outside the house. It is an accomplishment in fighting that pain that others don\'t get. We get it here. All of it. The feelings are so much easier to express and are completely understood by others because they have been where we are. And, if you are a loser, then so am I. Is that really what we think of one another? Don\'t think I will ever hear you say that or think it about me or anyone else on this site or anyone else, period. You are just too kind hearted to everyone but yourself. Many hugs and much love from Oklahoma! Sorry I am so late with support on this part of the site.