Never Got the Chance

I am just realizing it was a got damn miracle the relationship went on as long as it did. 8 years and no proposal. 8 years and there was not one time, not one time in those 8 years we were able to see each other everyday or every other day. How the hell did we make it that long? 
 
I regret hurting you. I regret throwing away our love, but come on. 8 years, 6 long distance, 3 years of no sex. That should be a got damn crime. Should I really take all the blame for this??? No way a man would have been able to court a woman for 8 years back in the 60s. A woman's father would have told you to get the hell on and stop wasting his daughter's time and years of fertility. Shit.
 
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Aside
I'm sorry I hurt you, Al. I really am. After what I did, I thought you could never hurt me the way I hurt you. I thought I caused that much pain. But you did find a way to hurt me. You said I was unworthy to be a wife. You said I was unworthy to be a mother. My honesty only changed your perspective of me. That makes me sad that you will only know me by my mistake and the image of me being your wife and mother of your kids has been forever tainted. I still love you. I always did even though I lost my brain for a moment. I wish I can turn back the hands of time, but funny how the clock only moves forward. It's trying to give us a hint don't you think?