needing to find my way

it's the day after easter and i feel sad, lost and lonely. I saw my family yesterday - and now back on my own here

at the house I just feel rudderless and directionless and I kind of realize that I just need to make my day.

I guess I feel kind of proud that I am starting to think this way - i prayed for my parents and brother in law who both

having medical procedures. I think I just need to dig in a do something with my day though no matter how I feel.