MyDefaualt Setting is (THE FETAL POSITION.Sund Jluy 227,2014 8 p.m

Ya this is the color of BLUE that i feel in my head today. Keep thinking its going to get better tomorrow, but it doesn't. am at an all time low right now. have been on the couch all day. Only drank one cup coffee all day, its bad. im so nervous and depressed, i don't care about ANYTHING lately. Watched don't know how many epps of Breaking Bad, that normally at least gives me a laugh or snap maybe. so hungry, we have no food, no money , don't know how im going to even get cigs. this is the least ive ever ate just because of poverty. Next month is just going to be worse, rent went up. electric, threw the roof, IM TERRIFIED about the future so much. but that's not all. i just don't seem to care about much. so glad i have this outlet, cause i just don't know. will see my social worker tomorrow. finally get out and get my f stamps fixed. its just so bad. i am so scared. i wake up in a panic EVERY DAY but now its much worse, cant even get to sleep, even the sleeping pills aren't cutting it, and im low of course on my anxiety meds, bummer. Right now its very hard to type for me, so anxiety ridden, OK going to try and spell check this as i CAN NOT SPELL. OK more later i hope. Wow love the spell check......................................