My Trip To New York- Part 2

I havent seen my family on Charlie's (my abuser and father) side since I was 9 years old. Having the opportunity of seeing them and embracing them was more than words could say. I am a very family oriented person and I always kept in touch with them and never forgot about them. I found them when I was on FACEBOOK. I looked up my cousin Wendy and found so many matches. I went on to send every girl that looked like Wendy a message saying that I have been looking for my long lost cousin and if they were her. I finally got a response from one of the girls saying she was her and it went from there. I called her and I was able to get the whole family's number and made a ton of calls. They were so happy to hear from me and almost every single one asked me the dreaded question: Have you spoken to your father yet??? Everytime they asked me that question I was so sick to my stomach. They all tried to push his number on to me and I wrote it down but never called. Finally, one of my boy cousins gave Charlie my number and thats when he called and I had the balls to ask him why he did what he did to me. I was staying with my younger cousin Wendy in the Bronx. She is 21 is a very smart and successful young lady and I love the shit out of that girl! She was very pleasant to stay with and made sure I was well cared for. She was the only one, besides her older brother Wellington, that knew about what Charlie did to me. She was there for me when I finally broke down from everyone asking me about dam Charlie. Her mother my Tia Yoli sometimes was very persistant in getting info and Wendy would stand up for me and tell her to chill out cuz I didnt have the heart to. Wendy would sit and hear me tell the stories to my uncles and watch me squirm in my seat about questions that were being asked. She finally came out herself seeing how strong I was to tell some family members about it. She too was a victim of Charlie and I was so shocked. It didnt affect her as bad as it affeced me and Im glad to see that. After telling my uncles what happened, they were so pist at Charlie. They started realizing things about him and thinking of their daughters. My uncle Ricardo was so shocked. He even mentioned, " So thats why Charlie would always call me to see how long till I get home from work, he was taking care of my daughter and probably did something to her." The look on my uncle's face made me tear up. My uncles told me that it was always said by Charlie that I would make up stories and that I was a liar. I could have been saying something back then or maybe I didnt and he would say that about me just to cover his ass in case I ever slipped. See, Charlie is a fuck up in the family already. He was an alcoholic and did coke from time to time. Everyone new he was a screw up and pretty much my whole family apologized on his behalf for him not being in my life. They explained that they never wanted me to be so far and they all wished Charlie could have been a better father and tried harder to keep in touch with me through out my life. I was moved to tears when they all at different times expressed that to me. My uncles made a determination to find other victims and create a course of action to this problem. I am happy that I could be an advocate of the family. I received much love and support and I am grateful it turned out as smooth as it did. As for Charlie, he is trying to get me to visit him in Florida. He is so dam persistant its not even funny! I told my uncles that I dont want to go down there without any of them because I dont trust Charlie and I fear he will strike again. I want to see Charlie because I want him to see me and his brothers and tell them the story of my abuse. I want an apology face to face and I want him to seek therapy so he can stop hurting others. I am updating some goals: CROWN MY HEART EVERYDAY because I was so couragious and helped my family be aware of an abuser. BECOME STRESS FREE because I am letting go of such a "ball and chain" problem I have been keeping in my heart and I could now feel myself healing. Thanks for reading =)