My thoughts on Christmas!
So Christmas is here…and what have ya done.
Something’s….not nearly enough as what I had planned is my reply.
Christmas comes every year. Every year I have a hard time. It’s hard to want to love something that you have never ever really loved. I feel abnormal. Everyone around me is happy and excited. Me…I dread the months following Halloween. Seems the carols start right the next day. Now, don’t get me wrong. It’s great if you love the holidays. I can understand if you work and you have weeks off and have been aching to get to the end of your work week before the holidays, or if you’re a kid and school has lost its lustre. I get it. You enjoy. I just can’t.
I try every year to find one thing that I can enjoy. But every year it’s the same thing. Most people think it’s because of my parents. Yes, they give me a bit of stress…ok…. A LOT of stress. But even if I was away from them I am not sure it would make a difference.
Christmas makes people happy and when you have depression you can’t see the happy. Everything seems blurred. Hence the picture.
I remember when I was a kid. I loved Christmas, but as I grew older the novelty left. I just couldn’t find one thing I enjoyed.
I feel bad. My gf tries to get me into the season every year. I try to give her the benefit but at times its hard. She’s the typical I LOVE CHRISTMAS kind of girl. She works hard and her holidays are something she looks forward too, she can beg and play video games and just enjoy time off. Which like I said I get totally and me well I am the CHRISTMAS….BAH HUMBUG kind of girl. She says one day when we lived together she will get me to love Christmas. I hope I can one day.
Until then I stay blurred around this holiday. Hopefully I will see it all clear again soon.
HAPPY HOLIDAYS to those who can enjoy it!
Something’s….not nearly enough as what I had planned is my reply.
Christmas comes every year. Every year I have a hard time. It’s hard to want to love something that you have never ever really loved. I feel abnormal. Everyone around me is happy and excited. Me…I dread the months following Halloween. Seems the carols start right the next day. Now, don’t get me wrong. It’s great if you love the holidays. I can understand if you work and you have weeks off and have been aching to get to the end of your work week before the holidays, or if you’re a kid and school has lost its lustre. I get it. You enjoy. I just can’t.
I try every year to find one thing that I can enjoy. But every year it’s the same thing. Most people think it’s because of my parents. Yes, they give me a bit of stress…ok…. A LOT of stress. But even if I was away from them I am not sure it would make a difference.
Christmas makes people happy and when you have depression you can’t see the happy. Everything seems blurred. Hence the picture.
I remember when I was a kid. I loved Christmas, but as I grew older the novelty left. I just couldn’t find one thing I enjoyed.
I feel bad. My gf tries to get me into the season every year. I try to give her the benefit but at times its hard. She’s the typical I LOVE CHRISTMAS kind of girl. She works hard and her holidays are something she looks forward too, she can beg and play video games and just enjoy time off. Which like I said I get totally and me well I am the CHRISTMAS….BAH HUMBUG kind of girl. She says one day when we lived together she will get me to love Christmas. I hope I can one day.
Until then I stay blurred around this holiday. Hopefully I will see it all clear again soon.
HAPPY HOLIDAYS to those who can enjoy it!
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