My Thoughts/ Day 7 Recovery

I went to volunteer today. It was okay. My mood sort of change while I was volunteering. I was thinking about my life. I think I need to see my therapist more often so I can learn about the basic of life. I see my therapist maybe once a month. I think I need to go to a outpatient facility. I see that I am clueless about life. I can't handle stress. I can't control my depression. I have moodswing all of the time. I need to learn how to handle them. I'm actually afraid the I will fail in life. I'm afraid that I will be homeless someday if I live on my own. I started being afraid ever since my grandfather passed away in 2007. When my grandfather passed away, I thought we wouldn't make it without him. My family is doing fine without him. My fear is that I won't be able to take care of myself when I be on my own. I need a lesson about life.