My story

life was ok, but I was depressed and tired all the time. Found out I have vitamin deficiencies and an autoimmune disease. As soon as I start to improve, and knowing it's a lot of work ahead to feel better again, My husband of two years decides to tell me he loves me but isn't in love with me anymore. We've been together 4 years all together. Life suddenly got too real, too grownup for him I guess? I feel like the rug has been pulled out from under me, all my hopes and plans and dreams are shattered and now I must figure out my life alone. We decide to go to counseling, and work on intimacy and just Be. For now it is working. But I wander through our house, walking on eggshells, waiting for the other shoe to drop. And I question everything- do I love him? Am I in love? Is this pain worth it, is this love worth fixing? Is he right now telling his mother and having her guide him to leave me? Am I always going to end up the loser in relationships while those who have hurt me in the past get to have their happy ending????