My story

Hi my name is Mack and I'm just gonna post a little bit of my story surrounding my Eating Disorder.  Starting from the age of 11 I started restrictions my eating.  I realized that I couldn't dance properly after eating a meal, so on days that I had dance I would skip food that day.  When I was in grade 7 and 8, I was scared of eating in front of people, so I would throw out my lunches and tell everyone I ate breakfast and dinner everyday to avoid me questioned.  (This was a lie, I rarely ate even 1 meal in a day).  By the age of 14 I started to eat more and was gaining weight, however this quickly went down hill when I was diagnosed with a chronic stomach illness that made it difficult to eat.  I lost a significant amount of weight in a short period of time, and this triggered my fear of gaining weight again.  By 15 I became very Ill and was admitted into an eating disorder inpatient program.  I was diagnosed with anorexia nervosa and this is where treatment began.  I had to eat 3 meals and 3 snacks everyday and it was difficult but I made it through.  Once I was medically stable I started an outpatient treatment program.  It was very strict, but it did really help me and I began recovery..at first not willingly, but after months of treatment I began to want to recover myself as well.  I went 4 months doing really well, I maintained a healthy weight, and my fear of food was almost non-existent.  I felt probably the happiest I had been in a while.  This past November tho the thoughts and fears returned.  Over those 4 months the ED voices were only whispers, but once November hit they were loud and very disruptive in my daily life.  It is now February and I am still struggling.  However I have agreed to restart outpatient treatment.  I want to recover to live a happy healthy life, but at this moment I am not able to do it alone.  This is parts of my story up until now.  I hope 1 day I will be able to say that I have overcome my disorder