my sons birthday today
Today was our son's 6th birthday today. I actually met up with darah and her family at the scottsdale train park today. I know tommy loved it. It was a little painful to see sarah and not touch her or hold her like i wanted to. I really enjoyed hanging out with my two sons, my wife, and her parents. We had so much fun. I just need to remember one day at a time. I realized today that i can be patiend and remain calm. I wanted to blow up and tell sarah that i felt like shit and did not want the divorce. But, i thought it is my sons birthday, and i did not want to ruin it at all. I know that doing that will not work either. Patience is what i am really trying to learn. It isnt easy, but i will work harder and harder at it. It really felt good to see my beautiful wife today. I just hope and pray that she sees change and comes back. I know it might take time, and am telling myself that the time is worth the wait. To anybody reading these, pray for me. I am working on this one day at a time and just hope that this is the lord aboves plan for me and sarah. I still do not want this divorce and will try my butt off to repair my actions to show sarah that i still want to be the husband she wants and needs.