My Shadows Aren't My Friends

Hi (:

My name is Ella. And I suffer from anxiety and depression. *crowd* "Hiii Ella."

Jk. I like to type as I think, so forgive me for these unfiltered entries. 

Anywho,

I've decided to start up this Journal because i like the idea of an open journal. As scary as it seems, its almost as if some of you are in my mind. But it's a dark place. So i really hope some of you are equipped with flashlights. (: 

Now the title of this journal is pretty self explanatory. In my bio i mentioned my anxiety and my depression have been my shadows since i was 13 years old. I call them shadows because shadows, are something that can be seen once a solid object starts to block light, right? Well, without the over use of metaphors, i can say that the different parts of my mind like to block out a lot of light. And they start to create multiple shadows. It can be dangerous because my shadows start to overcome me, and they become my demons. Everyone can relate to demons. I'm sure a lot of you can relate to shadows. Maybe you just call it something different. 

These journal entries are personal. Every journal entry ever made is always meant to be personal. But of course, they're all meant to be read by someone. Who else is going to grammatically correct your errors. Jk. In all seriousness, I want these journals to be read by those who have their own shadows and demons. I want those people to understand that they will never be alone. I havent experienced every traumatic event a person can go through, but i believe i have experienced enough to help someone who is going through the same thing. 

Each entry will be a different experience. Kinda like... a chapter in a book. With the book being my life.

I generally have terrible memory, but i'm going to try to describe every feeling and every reaction as accurate as I can. Just so those reading, can relate to those feelings and those reactions. 

My plan is to write an entry once a week about a different experience. With maybe the idea of people telling their experiences of a similar situation in either the comments, or my messages. (Of course, if they feel comfortable) 

So there's that. If you guys have any opinions or comments, please leave them. But keep it nice and clean (:

Hug someone you love today and tell them you appreciate them.