my sense of health is falling apart today

maybe it's just something that happens.

my sense of mental well being comes and goes. Maybe

regrouping like this is just part of what makes up my life...

I know I've got to wrangle with the highs and lows, of control and chaos,

of confidence and insecurity...maybe those just opposites of type things are all within us...

so better get a sense that it's normal to just have measures to take when they happen.

So today I was going from prudent kind of serious structure for taking care of my life,

to the self inspiring, motivating and liberating 'following my own curiousity' (like I did today.)

I was going to take a hike and the real purposeful, health giving status of it in my mind

made it forboding and seemingly abusive. I knew it was just the way things are for me

when I transition to something unknown and new. But knowing this also helped me move on to a different

pespective.

For some reason instead of the "browbeating shoulds" that might get me 'out the door' sometimes.

Or instead of the self pumping myself up...to get going... I just felt like 'being curious about where the people

are?' was enough to get me out the door. (cue little mermaid music LOL hehe) But seriously I was kind of lonely and feeling like an island

as my schedule was different today - and so I just followed my nose out the door and down the street.
It was a good walk, though punctuated by and intense, urgent need to use the washroom LOL.

Anyways, I made it - doing the walk and also in time to get to the washroom. :)

I hope you guys are having a good day. I've got some things to do around here...
There's always something that needs to be done... and I'm grateful for it..

Peace and hugs,

Mark