with Dr. Tom, we have figured out a lot with the ptsd issues. Sub consiously, i think i am a failure. The things that i have wanted to do with my life, i have not done. Especially with adding this seperation to the mix, it adds to it. I did not become a pilot like i planned. I did not get to finish college to become an officer in the marines. I did not even get to stay in the marines like i wanted. I missed my first son's birth. i missed out on a lot of family time because of deployments and work. My health hindered me continuing my career. because of those things i have not dealt with, they have created bad confusing emotions, which turn to anger, according to Dr. Tom. I am not sure what the next step is, but i have at least identified them. We will work on them next monday at 8 am.