My Prayer for Today
My Prayer for Today First of all my prayers are with the families of those who lost love ones eight years ago today. It was an awful day that we are not soon to forget. I remember the way we all came together as Americans. On that day we were not Republicans or Democrats. We were all Americans. I just wish we could come together like that these days in light of Health Care Reform. We are so divided on this subject. It makes me sick about all the hate mongers spreading vicious rumors. Please Dear God, let them come up with a solution that will be right for everyone. Next my prayer is for all my sisters that are going through such a tough time right now. My heart goes out to you. You all have helped me through the darkest time of my life, and I hope I can help you as well. No one understands what we have gone/going through with this insidious disease like we do. How if felt when we were first diagnosed. The fear that grips your heart. How it felt to tell your children. The fear every time you get your blood drawn. Please God help my sisters through this. Lastly for myself. I want to thank God for keeping me cancer free for this time. Sometimes I wonder why I was spared, when so many of my sisters were not. My life has been so difficult since Cancer. I wonder why sometimes why I was spared, just to go through the terrible things I have been going through. Losing jobs, not being able to find a job, after filling out hundreds of applications and going on dozens of interviews. I have not worked in a month and my finances are in a mess. At this point I don’t even want to try anymore for fear of more rejections. I need all of your prayers Maybe this seems trite to some of you that are going through chemo and still battling Cancer, but it is a serious concern to me. I guess this is more of a rant. Thanks for reading. Love Hugs and Prayers to all of you.Anita
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Dear Anita
I feel that we`ve all been given obstacles to overcome and through the strength of our DS sisters and friends we`ll end up victorious...Try not to give up in your quest for a job, just be patient.
Lots of love and strength.
xxLinda
Your prayer is beautful Anita. Your concerns for your well being are valid. Your fear that you will be unable to take of yourself and needs is valid. I will keep you in my prayers and I know that things will get better. Stay strong and stay faithful.
xoxo
Kia
Anita, I too think your prayer was beautiful, straight from the heart. It must be so hard for you. Getting rejected from a job interview is very hard, I know. Our economy was bad here a while ago when I was looking for my job. It seemed that things would never work out, but they finally did. Keep praying. God is listening. Maybe your perfect job isn\'t open up yet. We never understand his plan for us, but do believe it is a good one. I will continue to keep you in my prayers. You are a very intelligent person with a lot to offer an employeer, never doubt yourself. I am happy you are cancer-free and grateful for your prayers for your DS sisters. Also I am with you for your prayers for the country and health reform. Good Bless You and answer your prayers swiftly. Love and Hugs always, Julie
Thank you so much for sharing your prayer with us. I will be praying that you find a job that meets your needs soon!!!
I want to thank you you all for your prayers. I love you all so much. I really needed to vent. Thank you for reading. Love and hugs to all of you.
Dear Anita, Thank you for the most appropriate prayer for today. I have round 2 of chemo today and really appreciate any prayers. I do keep your job search in my prayers. Surely something will show up soon. Have you considered volunteering somewhere and perhaps it will network into a paid position? Often schools need classroom aids and volunteers. Aids are paid. I don\'t know - I just know that we encourage out students to get unpaid internships if they can\'t get paid ones. Just something on the resume for them is important.
I, too, hope the health care conundrum is resolved soon. I have great health care through my employer but I am the carrier. My husband\'s plan is much more limited since he works for a small company so he\'s on my insurance. Ours is such an injust system and the rhetoric flying about is so dishonest. My youngest son is about to go off our insurance and it makes me so angry that there is no cheap and easy alternative for young adults.
Many hugs and much love to you, Janet
Janet, thank you so much for the suggestion, but I don\'t have the time to do an internship waiting for a paying job. I am sinking fast. I might look into telemarketing, which I hate but usually they will hire anyone and at least it will be money coming in. I will have to see. Love and hugs to everyone.
Don\'t for one moment imagine that your struggle since your successful treatment is in any way insignificant or trite. What you are going through now is all part of the same battle we are all up against.. just another phase another stage. Eight years ago when I was first successfully treated, I managed to get two years off work.. The first year I was \'signed off\' as too unwell for work by my doctor.. and had some time to catch my breath and take stock of what I had been through and to try to figure a way forward with my life.. The second year was a lot tougher.. they don\'t allow us to stay on the \'sick\' indefinitely indefinitely... and make us jump through some rathe riduculous and totally inadequate set of assessments to see if we are really unfit to work.. Well I wasn\'t still.. and I knew it.. however the pressure on me was to get moving on the job market.. I went through some training that was available and did some volunteer work in areas that I was interested in.. this led to some very stressful job working with homeless people.. I was damned good at it.. but it caused me more stress and upsets than I was fit to deal with.. I stood in as manager for six months, fully expecting it to, ultimately, be my job.. it was given to a 22 year old idiot, who didn\'t have a clue what he was about, where he was or the real problems of the people he was dealing with.. Lots of the good work and initiatives I had set up were destroyed within no time of him starting there.. I moved on the clerical and admin work at the hospital.. the one I\'ve just been incarcerated in.. again it was too much stress for me and I pushed myself extremely hard and took it all to heart.. those seven years were harder for me to deal with than the actual cancer.. many of the problems I was having were a direct result of my cancer and a part of it.. I only managed to stop the treadmill when the cancer recurred...
If I went into remission again, I would not take the work issues so seriously, nor would I push myself as hard as I did.. I know it is harder in the US.. but perhaps there are training schemes or volunteering ones that could suffice whilst you buy some time and find your feet.. Please try not to go for something you will not enjoy.. this is all stressing you out too much and us cancer women need to avoid all the stress we can, I know you know this and were having a good rant here.. but I also knowhow hard this is to deal with and how dreadful it can feel.. Please make life as simple as you can for yourself and breathe freely and deeply.. these times will pass.. and you will look back with pride at how you coped.
Health care reform..WILL happen in the US and you will all be feeling lots better soon and able to get on with better things in life than just worrying about what happens when you get ill.
America is not a backward country and will not tolerate being seen as such by the rest of the civilized world.. This is unstoppable progress.. far strong than governments and politics..
Love you loads sweetest lady... xxxxxx
What a beautiful prayer and thank you so much for sharing it with us. I know things are hard right now but like Julie said keep praying and trying to find a job and it will come. Things will and are turning around for America.. Big big hugs and love to you Anita......
Thank you all so much for your kind and caring words. Even though nothing has changed I feel so much better just having your love and support. Letting it all out also helped. I will keep you posted. Love and hugs to all.
I\'m glad sharing what you are going through has helped you Anita and I often wish you would write more journals for us to be able to support you better.. Hope it\'a a great weekend for you and that you can put the job search away for a couple of days and just enjoy.. weekends are for fun and relaxation.. Love and hugs to you xxx
Thanks, Inka. I love when people write daily journals and tell us what is going on in there lives. I wish I were more like that. Sometimes I think I don\'t have much to say or that people would not be that interested in my stuff. I will try to write more often. :-) Thanks.
I am always interested in what you write.. you have so much to say and solid opinions on issues that matter.. always looking out for more from you.. Just keep it coming.. xxxxxx
Hi Anita,
I relate to you in that I don\'t feel I have much to offer other than my support to those suffering recurrences. I think I\'ll start writing more journals and stop feeling awkward for being in a remission right now. I have a load of stress around financial problems too. I was hired at McGraw-Hill in May, but I\'m still waiting for work! I am not well enough to work outside the home due to diabetes and neuropathy. I have a host of medical issues unrelated to cancer. I thank you for your post because I want to share more about my life here with all of you, and you helped me realize I should just do that. Bless you, Anita, and thanks for your prayer offering. Inka, I\'m glad you\'re so sure we\'ll have health care reform here--sometimes, I worry it won\'t happen. tons of love and purrs, to all of you,
Rhoda & Scottie
Rhoda I think you are a very interesting person. I guess we all have our own stuff and personalities that make us unique. We all have things to share. I should not feel the way I do, that people are not interested in my life, and you should not either. For some reason it is very hard for me to share the most intimate details of my life. I have no girlfriends, to speak of outside of DS. No one really to talk to. I am not very close with my daugter which is another story. I am going to try to be more forthcoming. Love to all