my pants don't fit

and it is an indication that i've gone too far with my eating and lack of exercise.  i just wanna be.  i just wanna do what i want and eat what i want.  i'm currently feeling like i wanna be rebellious.  i know what is the right thing to do, but i just wanna do what i want regardless.  and i've gone too far,  because i can't afford to buy more clothes.  i feel like a scolded child but the one doing the scolding is me.