My nerves
I wish the letters could cry as I type this....
I am so out of it lately and it has only been a week and two days. I cannot sleep without sleep aids, I am tired and worn out. I am jumpy, anxious and worried for no reason and every reason. Prime example, today my son call me at 430pm to ask me a simple question, however everyone knows that I am near work during this time, so when I seen the caller id, I flipped out!!! My adrenaline went through the roof!! I almost cried as I answered the phone. I sleep with my cell on it's on pillow near my head. This is how I was that night and I don't want to miss any calls, because I did that night until my Ex-husband called me several times.
My son is staying with his dad and I hope and pray that this will help ease my nerves. I am a Christian and we are suppose to believe with faith and trust in God. I do, but... and for us there is not suppose to be a but.
All I need is faith the size of a mustard seed.. I need to let go and let God. I am suppose to rely on him to help me through this, but I cannot seem to get a grasp on this....I did for my Grandmother and my Mother, but for my son I am slipping. I went to church and I could've passed out in the middle of the isle. And please believe me I AM THANKFUL MORE THAN WORDS CAN EXPRESS!!!
I am so out of it lately and it has only been a week and two days. I cannot sleep without sleep aids, I am tired and worn out. I am jumpy, anxious and worried for no reason and every reason. Prime example, today my son call me at 430pm to ask me a simple question, however everyone knows that I am near work during this time, so when I seen the caller id, I flipped out!!! My adrenaline went through the roof!! I almost cried as I answered the phone. I sleep with my cell on it's on pillow near my head. This is how I was that night and I don't want to miss any calls, because I did that night until my Ex-husband called me several times.
My son is staying with his dad and I hope and pray that this will help ease my nerves. I am a Christian and we are suppose to believe with faith and trust in God. I do, but... and for us there is not suppose to be a but.
All I need is faith the size of a mustard seed.. I need to let go and let God. I am suppose to rely on him to help me through this, but I cannot seem to get a grasp on this....I did for my Grandmother and my Mother, but for my son I am slipping. I went to church and I could've passed out in the middle of the isle. And please believe me I AM THANKFUL MORE THAN WORDS CAN EXPRESS!!!
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