My mind is going to bad places
The work situation has gotten so bad. I almost walked out today. I was so angry and upset I was shaking. I will have to take at least one xanax to get to sleep tonight. I was seriously thinking of a way I could be put away for life...not prison but mental institute...hell maybe prison is better. I can't think of anything that will get me life without harming someone. That's when the bad ideas started. If I was going to chose suicide by cop I would take one or two of the bitches with me. For a few moments this really started to sound reasonable to me. I can't just go find another job. I feel scared. I'm afraid I will lose my job. I am afraid I will quit my job. I am trapped with no one but myself to blame. I am in full out panic mode. Crazy shit is looking like a good idea to me.
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What exactly happened? I am so sorry you are feeling like this and I hope you are sleeping now. If not I am west coast and you can always message me, I am up late. If you are going to take bitches out, let me pick the right ones!
Long story, Dooo. Last night was horrible. I was in panic mode all night. I had to take another Xanax at 1:30 am. I got a couple of hours of fitful sleep. I am better today. Probably because it is Friday.
Good to hear you are better today.
Hi Cecil - I\'m also glad you\'re better today. I hope you have a peaceful, restorative weekend.