my mind

I think I wrote about this a while back that my mind will find some peace but then it's like

the creative brain will start needling me.

Today I found out the same thing in terms of subjectively experiencing my life.

I was feeling so comfortable in my room. Like I had finally found some peace about my life,

the work I am doing and the wonderful home life that I have in my room with Blue.

Really like hermetic and just nourishing in a way -

but my mind won't let me live in that world too long. It's like it is pushing me to think

about others and the world out there. It's kind of a menacing thing - but then again

it's kind of a lightful thing. Like I am meant to think about the world at large, ask questions

and to be there for people in life. It's been a hard won thing to have a sense of my own life.

It's a hard won reality for most I bet. We all gotta deal with ourselves and our experience of life.

I've finally found my neck of the woods and yet only to find that I am meant to explore beyond the woods,

to the pasture, the plains and to the ocean. Grateful though I have my home to come back to. It's

like a reward, after metal detecting the field of my life, I have at last found a coin! :)