my loose wiring

my mind has a few loose wires that I have a hard time reconciling. I ground myself

by coming on here and journaling - journalling offline and online are two things I do.

Sometimes I eat, sometimes I drink, sometimes I sleep and sometimes I go for a walk.

Having a hard time dealing with this right now - I think cause when it's your mind...how can

you step outside of it and say "Ok we'll do this for a spell" - the momentum for doing something

about this lost feeling is helping me out - but it never ceases to amaze me - how people can

manage their lives and have relationships - and romantic relationships and build families

and have productive careers...I am on a never ceasing cycle of finding fulfillment through work

and then when alone I am blown away by wonderment of the unknown.. Maybe I will go for a walk.

I can't keep on top of it all the time...and I have heard it said by many "We all have shit" - 

so writing this helps. It's like I have to constantly fight for sanity and it gets pretty tiring

but then again we all have to self manage - and so this is where I come to blow off some steam about it.