My life sucks - wish I were dead. It will be 9 months on Sunday.
I am frustrated. It will be nine months in a few days, actually on Sunday. Nothing seems to be working out for me. I will have to take an Excel course if I want a receptionist job. I need money to keep living in the apartment. Life sucks. I don't want to lose the apartment as it was Smokey's legacy to me. If I lost the apartment, I don't know how I would react but I would definitely go ballistic. I am in a really negative state of mine at the moment. At the moment, and the moment will pass by, I wish I were dead. I can't continue on anymore. I pray but it is if God doesn't hear my prayers. It is like God doesn't care about me anymore. God took the one good thing in my life which was Smokey and left me here alone. My life sucks.
1. Job market sucks - need to take an Excel course but need money as well to live and keep the apartment.
2. Men suck - men are pigs
3. My life sucks - wish I had died with Smokey and not be left here all alone. There is no purpose for me. There is no plan for me. There is no way for me. There is no will for me. Why am I here? Why couldn't I have been the one that was taken and Smokey left behind. Why?
My life sucks and I wish I had died with Smokey from Diane
1. Job market sucks - need to take an Excel course but need money as well to live and keep the apartment.
2. Men suck - men are pigs
3. My life sucks - wish I had died with Smokey and not be left here all alone. There is no purpose for me. There is no plan for me. There is no way for me. There is no will for me. Why am I here? Why couldn't I have been the one that was taken and Smokey left behind. Why?
My life sucks and I wish I had died with Smokey from Diane
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Diane, I am sorry that you are feeling so bad now. I get the same feelings quite often. Watching Mass on tv helps to lift me up, and mornings are the worst, so I watch it every morning. I also have to keep telling myself that God has a purpose and other plans for me. I don\'t know what His purpose and plan are and may not find out for a long time...maybe never. But this helps me to keep going when depression gets worse. As much as we want to know why life happens as it does, it we did know we might be bored. We have to keep doing the best we can. I hope you start to feel better soon! Big hugs, Patti
Diane there are a lot of employment agencies and or government agencies that retrain people and it is FREE. Maybe you can check into them. Hugs, Wendy
Diane, I hit the nine month mark last week and for some reason it seemed tougher than some of the past months had been...I had a horrible couple of days. There are a lot of employment agencies out there...I had to temp at one time. You do have a purpose..and Smokey would not want you to give up and he also probably would have been worse off than you had you died first. I know my Buddy would have never survived this whole sucky process of grief.
I keep telling myself that things will get better...guess I am lucky that I do have a job..and I can maintain my home...you have to be positive and even when it is hard...as far as God goes I am not the one to answer that question..hugs Ellen