My life slowly getting back to normal again.
My life is slowly getting back to normal again. It has only been nine months going on ten months on Sept. 15th. We mark our time by how long our loved one has been gone. Smokey wanted me to be happy and find a love of my own. He told me this many many times before he passed away on Nov. 15, 2009. The first time Smokey told me this I said to him I will never find anyone like you and will most likely stay single. This made him really unhappy so I said "yes" but in my heart I still meant no. After many conversations about this, I realized where Smokey was coming from with much love for me and my future. He was a really good man and the love of my life. I met someone a couple of weeks ago thru a mutual friend. His name is Dave who happens to be a Taurus like Smokey and is a really good man. Smokey was tall for me but he always said he was short for a man. Well Dave more than makes up for it as he is 6'5" tall compared to my measely 5'2" tall height. I think we make an odd couple but there are a lot of couples like us. Any how, I wanted to keep you posted. We are taking it as slow as we can. I could not have wished for any one better than Dave. I had my eyes open for awhile now and even made a list of guys that I did not want to date. I had 20 guys on that list but there were a few more that I could have added as well. I actually put Dave on it as I didn't think he was interested in me. It was thru a mutual friend that we got together and talked. It feels real, right, easy, comfortable and like we have known each other our whole entire lives. I will keep you posted.
I wish the job thing would be just as easy as getting together with Dave. Oh well, I will keep plugging along. I also checked out various Excel courses and boy do those prices vary. I can get one course at $199 but further to commute. The ones closest by are $350.00 but easier for me to get to as I don't drive. I am thinking about it as most receptionist positions require having Excel.
My Letters of Administration that I need to settle what is left of Smokey's estate is still in Probate. I emailed my lawyer and she will check into it within the next few weeks. It all takes time but in my heart I wished it was all over with the day Smokey died. I felt like dying along with Smokey. Alas! I am still alive and breathing. God did not grant my prayer by taking my mortal body. I guess there is a purpose for me to still be alive, breathing and walking on God's green earth. I wonder what His purpose is for me. I am taking it one day at a time. It's all any one person can do. I am trying to do the best I can but I am only human and screw up/make mistakes.
My Grandson Tyson is growing by leaps and bounds. His eyes follow you now and he smiles. Tyson seems to be a pretty contented baby. Lisa and Grant's relationship is a different story. At times they seem like they are going to break up and other times it could not be better. I can see it as they are so young. They don't listen to each other when they speak, which is vital to communication in all our relationships. Lisa asked me one day and I said councelling whether it is relationship councelling or financial advice but they need something. Mom is not enough.
All the best to everyone and thanks for being here for me and I hope I am for you as well from Diane B.
I wish the job thing would be just as easy as getting together with Dave. Oh well, I will keep plugging along. I also checked out various Excel courses and boy do those prices vary. I can get one course at $199 but further to commute. The ones closest by are $350.00 but easier for me to get to as I don't drive. I am thinking about it as most receptionist positions require having Excel.
My Letters of Administration that I need to settle what is left of Smokey's estate is still in Probate. I emailed my lawyer and she will check into it within the next few weeks. It all takes time but in my heart I wished it was all over with the day Smokey died. I felt like dying along with Smokey. Alas! I am still alive and breathing. God did not grant my prayer by taking my mortal body. I guess there is a purpose for me to still be alive, breathing and walking on God's green earth. I wonder what His purpose is for me. I am taking it one day at a time. It's all any one person can do. I am trying to do the best I can but I am only human and screw up/make mistakes.
My Grandson Tyson is growing by leaps and bounds. His eyes follow you now and he smiles. Tyson seems to be a pretty contented baby. Lisa and Grant's relationship is a different story. At times they seem like they are going to break up and other times it could not be better. I can see it as they are so young. They don't listen to each other when they speak, which is vital to communication in all our relationships. Lisa asked me one day and I said councelling whether it is relationship councelling or financial advice but they need something. Mom is not enough.
All the best to everyone and thanks for being here for me and I hope I am for you as well from Diane B.
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