my life since then
I'm not great lately. The ex is officially out of my life since feb and although i cant be more at peace with that, my life has been sucking. between more guys messing with my mind, 4 pets dying, losing my job, losing some friends, and having a fall out between my and my sister and her husband - which now means i never get to see my nephew, Lucas, the one joy i had left. Its hard and I cant take much more. Considering all I went through with my ex, i thought i more than earned i little peace in my life. I guess not. My parents are also constanlty threatening to kick me out. while they [so far] never followed through, its still stressful to be constantly hearing it. I still struggle with not self harming, but have a pretty good handle on it. I miss the life I used to have, the little things as well. I've gone through alot of changes and I'm holding up well as I can, I guess this is growing up.