My Heinze

My Heinze is dying.  He has been having little strokes or seizures. The vet says it is sometimes hard to tell the difference - they have been coming more often and Thursday night was the worst one.  He's having trouble walking and he is not eating at all today - he won't even eat liverwurst or bacon.   I am praynig so hard but hes not going to get better - he's almost 14 and in people years that's 98.  I just wish there had been something I could have done to make it all better for him. He has been on the deck today - just staring.  That's what happened when my Yorkie was starting to go.   I have been through the deaths of 3 of my animals since I moved to this house and even though they did not mean the same to me as Heinze has - it was some of the most difficut times in my life.  Heinze has been with me through thick and thin - he has protected me when I was in fear.  He has been such a good boy.  Right now I am praying that my deceased husband will come and get Heinze to make him feel safe when he leaves here.  I just wish Heinze would eat something - but I think he knows - they know - don't you think? This is so hard.  This is going to leave a huge hole in my heart - my life - he's everywhere I look and he has been such a good boy.  I just wish I could have given him more comfort and safety in his life with me. I can't stop crying - please ignore the typos. Please pray with me that Heinze will go peacefully and that he will find a safe home when he continues on his journey.