My Green Smiley Monday
Green Smiley Monday after Mothers Day. As you guys know John left for Alabama. I hoped he would be home before Mother's Day. My wish came true. He came home late Wednesday night. He was so tired. He really talked like there was a lot of heart breaking things to see. This is my main happy thing for Green Smiley Monday. My mothers day. I woke up around 7 and was on the road by 9 to go see my granny. She is still wasting away in the rest home. Then we did a little grocery shopping and was home by 12. My brother and I cooked for my mama. I was glad she came over. After everyone left John and I went to visit Josh. I want someone to explain to me something. Has bad as my heart was aching yesterday no tears fell. WHY????? Have I cried all of my tears? Do I have nothing left? Does this mean I am a bad mother because I did not shed a tear on Mother's Day when my only child is in heaven. This is really worring me. I do not know what to think. I should have been a basket case. I kept myself busy all day to keep my mind off of Mother's Day. Maybe that helped me. I don't know!!!! I just don't understand it!!!!
Josh, Please know that you are a very important part of my life. Even though you are not here you will always be a part of my life until the day I leave this world. I would give anything to see your smile and hear your laugh. I burned one of your incense yesterday in your room for you. I do love you my Joshie Pooh!!!
Josh, Please know that you are a very important part of my life. Even though you are not here you will always be a part of my life until the day I leave this world. I would give anything to see your smile and hear your laugh. I burned one of your incense yesterday in your room for you. I do love you my Joshie Pooh!!!
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