My Granny

To start out with John made it home last night about 6:00.  I was glad of that.  Today I went and saw my granny at the rest.  She is 94 will be 95 in September.  She is a very important part of my life.  The last couple of visits she would always want to know why God is keeping her here on this earth.  I have told her that when Josh passed she told me I was not supposed to ask why God had a reason and purpose that we would never understand.  This morning she told me that Charles Stanley (preacher on TV) have her a good surmon this morning.  He preached about not have any control of how long you are here on this earth.  She told me that God sent her this message this morning to let her know her PURPOSE here as not been filled it.  She said she did not know what it was but she was not finished yet.  All I could think of was Barbara's journal about her purpose in her life.  I wanted to cry my eyes out.  I have always wondered what my purpose is now that Josh is gone.  Loving and taking care of him was purpose in life even though sometimes I don't think he thought so. 
Today is beautiful here about 60 degrees.  I am heading outside to work in Josh's garden and talk with him a while.  I do miss him so. 
Love you all
 

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deleted_user
deleted_user

{{{hugs}}} we are all wondering the same thing now! hopefully, we will find it. until then, our purpose is to be here for each other. love you!
Leosmommy
Leosmommy

love what Charlayne just said....can\'t top it!
joeymom
joeymom

Yes, Charlaynne said it all. Bless you & your Granny.
Hugs.
deleted_user
deleted_user

WOW...I posted the sermon on my journal today!! I hope you will go to that link and hear it. I found it very comforting....as it is mostly about the valleys in this life....we can certainly relate. It was especially important because he mentioned depression and suicide. I was touched by the message and hope you will be too.
hugs, dale...brandon\'s mom
lynette22
lynette22

Sweetie, I\'m right there with you, and even without knowing what our purpose is we continue to push forward, otherwise we\'d just crumble up and die and I know JOSH and MATT don\'t want us to do that. losing them sure confused the hell out of us didn\'t it, and here we thought we were the mothers that knew everything - guess the LORD showed us - sending you hugs and so much love Rhonda - Lynette
deleted_user
deleted_user

I am still looking for my new purpose as my old one was Anthony\'s mom... I feel for me that I want to be present in my life and to help others who are new to this journey that they are some days filled with light and that we can inch forward.. love to you and I think in time we will realize that just be being we have touched so many others who are suffering and see us moving forward...
biowoman
biowoman

Purpose is good...we need to have it...seek it...find it...fulfill it. Love and hugs to you...and it was beautiful today here today too! Love and hugs...karen
KimRW
KimRW

Rhonda, so glad John got home safe and not gone too long. I have worked for the power company for 29 years...I know how those days are. Your Granny is wise....and she is right. God isn\'t finished with her yet. I too have often wondered what my purpose is since Chris died. He was my purpose in life!! I just read Dale\'s journal where she posted that sermon this morning......I\'m am getting ready to listen it to it now. Love & Hugs, Kim
BinkyH
BinkyH

I am so glad that you had a good visit with your grandma! And glad that John is home safe. I hope you tell him that we here in Maryland/DC area thank him. My manager at work was without power for the last four days but it is back on now. She lost all her fish in her tanks and two lizards. She is a lover of all kinds of pets. Everyone else is fine but it has been rough here. My mom had this poster on her wall which read \"God put me here on earth to accomplish a certain number of things. Right now, I am so far behind that I will never die\". I am searching for what it is that I need to do. Hugs, Belinda