My Friends thank you for caring!

 To all my friend who have patiently waited for my response. On the 23rd of January I actually did attempt suicide. It is amazing I woke up the next day. I slit my wrists and ankles and took an abundance of pills (ambien and ativan) along with drounding myself in beer, vodka and champagne. What a mess! Fortunately, though I do not remember I messaged my daughter saying that I might have done something to put me back in the hospital. She contactd my psychiatrist who baker acted me the day I woke up. I've been in the hospital and partial hospitalization program that is why I have not been around.
The Dr's have changed my med's and I am doing better, but one of my alters is really pissed that I'm still here and has been cutting me and giving me such mean feed back. I am scared that I will fall aprt again and succeed next time. I need your prayers that there will not be another time. 
Thank you for your kind remarks and genuine concern. I hope all are well. God bless you!
love,
Jessica