My first day here

So i'm not really used to write this much, but here it goes...Today I just discovered this awesome place, I think I can get so much help from people here...I'm this 17 year old girl, defined as,  a girl who suffers and hides her pain and scars behind facades and pretty smiles...and i resort to idiotic forms of "relief"...thats ME... So today i'm starting to think that I may need help, I just discovered how much i'm affecting myself...I don't want to be depressed anymore, I don't want to se my friends all happy, and just don't feel the same way as them... I want to stop feeling ugly because of my Dermatillomania (caused by my depression). So I just want to have a good beggining here.