my filter today

I arrived at work trouble by my own issues, mind and I just pushed on.

As the day moved on, I tried to deal with the jostling of coworkers and customers...

whereas as once I might try to build an inner bastion, compartmentalizing what might

come my way - I was not able today - and I dealt with the craziness as it came my way

by experiencing it and yet also remaining 'in my own lane' - and kind of 'working with a

filter on' - I drove home and the filter was still on - and yet though it was hard to transition

to being on my own - the filter (rather than the boundary) helped me experience the discomfort

but also appreciate my day. I came home and slowly I got back to being in touch with the people

I love - and that space - different from work and being 'out and about' - brought to me a sense of my filter

and so the transition to well being - love, friendship, joy and connection. I went out into the world to do an errand.

I resisted going out - but it's like I had to tell myself "Others have to go out too" - I don't know why I resist

but so I went out and did an errand and was texted along the way by the blessings of friends. And the people

I was in touch with around town seemed more in tune than before yet also filtering all the time.

Now home I am back into my own fortress but I know I have got to do other things. I'll try and motivate :).

xxxx